Tag: loss

Rainbows and Secondary Infertility

"And slowly, but surely, I am learning that I can only paint my life with the colors I am given. And it is up to me to turn those colors into something beautiful."

You Were Almost Mine: The Incomparable Grief That Is Miscarriage

"The lost possibilities haunt me. Songs that are supposed to be about the love that got away, every country song on the radio, every Alison Krauss song ever, they are all about Coco."

We Remember Our Lost Babies :: Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness

The truth is that once you lose a baby, you are not the same. Each of your children, whether they make it to babyhood, childhood or adulthood, changes you. And while you have been rocked, changed, rearranged and never to be the same again, by their loss, something you never wanted, the change that happens in you doesn’t have to be a bad thing.

Dealing With Motherhood Without Your Mom

Five years ago when I was 3 months pregnant with my first daughter, my mom passed away. Just like that, she was gone. It was the worst day of my life, it felt like the world caved in on me. What was supposed to be the happiest time of my life was clouded by the sad realization that I was going to experience motherhood without the person I needed the most by my side. I naturally always imagined that she would be there when I had my own children, it was unbearable to accept the fact that I had to do this without her.